Wednesday 24 June 2015

I need more Coffee!


This week has been quite a weird one and to be honest I sit here feeling a tad bit lost.
I managed to squeeze a roundup of BritMums out of my brain but that was difficult and I don’t fully know why!

BritMums was truly amazing. I have my notebook filled with all the things I have learnt and things that I will want to start to apply but where do I begin with them? Do I write up a post on each session I enjoyed or do I do a “this is what I am doing” post?
The event, although fabulous, was intense and slightly overwhelming for me. I was facing my fear and my social anxiety and mingling to my best ability but there were so many people that I wanted to see and saw that I eventually took some sessions off to just have a breather.

Then there was the physical aspect:
I checked the distance from the hotel as well as the accessibility of the venue. (The latter, by the way was brilliant) I took my straps so I was sturdier and safer when walking; I did stumble a few times though. The truth be told is that I really struggled physically; there was, for me, a lot of walking, standing and getting up and down, all of which added to me feeling physically strained.

Both of these aspects lead me to feeling quite emotional by mid-afternoon on the Saturday and eventually I snuck away, headed home and sadly missed the keynote speakers. It got all a little too much.
Despite my health issues I am fairly active as I am sure you will see when you read my home school posts of our days out. But I think with the added social anxiety my body was pushed to the limit.

(I am still feeling the effect of it now)
I now know that the best thing for me to do is bring my chair next year. I can use it for the distance walking as well as having somewhere to sit if I need to and at the same time if I want my independence then I can still walk around the venue.

Anyway, I digress.
I had the Boys on Sunday for Father’s Day but I only had them for the day. Now for those who are regular readers you will know that this is strange as I usually have them Sunday to Tuesday/Wednesday depending on the scenario.  

This week, however, I have them Sunday, Wednesday to Friday, Saturday to Tuesday.
I love having them for longer and I know we have lots to do and I will get time to really enjoy Home school and the topics we’re covering.

Yet, with the routine changed my days all seemed muddled. My Blogging seems muddled. For Example: Today is Wednesday and on Wednesdays I usually link up to BrummyMummy and her Wicked Wednesday linky. But without the boys I haven’t had a single incident that I can share.
This can also be said for Home Schooling, Parenting and other linkys like #ftmob and #bestandworst.

Now I know full well that this time next week I am sure to have enough stuff to be blogging for two weeks!
I seem to have nothing to blog about.

It isn’t just blogging though! I have found myself today just doing bits and drifting off into a day dream.
I have never fully understood it and don’t know if this is just a “Martyn” quirk or a D.P.D thing but I hate my routine being changed and it really knocks me out of sync.

The only way I can really know though is by the measure of my Coffee.




I drink far too much coffee throughout the day (It helps me to get through the day) but these last few days I have been making them and putting them on the side, to cool slightly, and then completely forgetting that I have them there. My mind wanders, I try and rest or sit every so often and try to blog and suddenly I remember and my Coffee is stone cold.

So for me I can’t wait for this afternoon to get the boys back, my routine back and to drink more coffee.
Is this normal though after events like Britmums to feel slightly overwhelmed and struggle processing all that you’ve learnt?

Or when your routine is changed dramatically? Or is this just a “Martyn” thing?
Best of Worst

8 comments:

Unknown said...

I can relate to feeling overwhelmed and drained after having been to a long event. BritMums Live was good but I came back from it feeling that I enjoyed last years event more. Morrisons sponsored a room that had lots of sitting space and some nibbles that all attendees could use to mingle, watch cooking demos and eat. Heinz also sponsored a room that was mainly used by mums with babies for feeding and general chilling. I missed that this year and found myself sat on the floor during lunch. Sorry to go on about that :-) - hope you enjoy rest of your week #bestandworst

Alan said...

Its not just you Martyn. Nothing upsets me more than my routine being knocked out of sync or even worse not going as anticipated.

Hence why I am dreading the impending summer holidays. All routine goes out the window.

I too drink way too much coffee, which doesn't really help with the insomnia!

I'm sure after a while of the new routine you'll settle into it and be back to your old self.

Martyn Kitney said...

Ah that room would have been ideal this year. It all just seemed a little too intense for me. Something that has knocked on with me. But once the routine is back I know it'll be fine. Thanks for commenting.

Martyn Kitney said...

Thanks Alan. Am glad it's not only me! That's something that I don't worry about as there isn't really anything different with us for half term or summer holidays in Home schooling terms.

I'm sure with my routine ill be back to normal.

Unknown said...

I totally get this Martyn! I think you are so used to a routine that when things changed you are totally thrown and it takes a few days to get re-settled. Also you have had that time out from Blogging and need to get back in! I think you did so well at Brit Mums considering all the walking and general chaos! As I've said was so brilliant to finally meet you. Thanks for supporting #bestandworst and see you soon! xx

Helen - Blogging Beautifully said...

I am one for routine, hate going off piste although I'm trying to chill out a bit about being so rigid these days. Hope you enjoyed Britmums and have had a chance to recover, thanks for sharing with the #bestandworst and hope to see you again next week :-)

Natalie Streets said...

Sometimes if you've got lots going on in your head you just need to give yourself a little time to process it all. you'll be back to it in no time I'm sure!

Tubbs said...

It's not just you. Events like BritMums are overwhelming - so many new people, new things, new ideas - and so much to process.

Hope you get your balance back soon!