I met earlier this week with my mental health support
worker; with everything that has been going on with me with problems, which I have
or have not shared on the blog, it has been a tough few weeks. There have been
moments where my head was so noisy amongst the silence and loneliness that it
felt like I was going hysterical. (And to be honest there were probable moments
when I was!) In a small window of clarity last week I picked up my care workers
number and called her and did everything to reach out to someone trained to
help.
It was a cry for help and one that at the time I really didn’t
care where it took me even if that meant me staying in hospital again. I needed
help.
Typical mental health system though and I had to wait 5 days
to be seen; and even then was pushed back another day. How I was coping I really
don’t know. There were moments when I was keeping going and there were moments
that I could only just break down and cry.
So when I managed to cope and survive and get to see her I have
to admit I was relieved; I spoke for a while about all the different things
that have been going on and what is happening in my head. It was a relief to
let it all out fully. So much that I burst into tears several times. But I really
felt that it needed to be done. By the end though we listed a few positives and
from that I have some good news to tell you all!
I have been accepted for a psychotherapy assessment; this
will literally be a full medical assessment, physical, medicinal and mental and
we knew that from my previous update. However, that bit we didn’t know was
when. Well I have a date the 28th of April
(It would have been in
June but they had a cancellation and my care worker decided to push me for that
slot with how much that I needed it)
So all I have to do now is maintain myself to my best ability
for the next 4 weeks. I am completely relieved to know that it’s just around
the corner as I know that I have been all over the place recently but step by
step I will carry one pushing forwards and climb back up to my normal self.
10 comments:
I'm sorry to hear about your recent struggles but I'm so glad that you had the courage to reach out to someone. I'm also glad you've now got an appointment for th end of the month. Keep your chin up! :)
Thanks for reading. Things are definitely turning a corner which is great.
Really hope 28th comes around quick, not wanting to wish time away but sometimes it's necessary! One day at a time, or sometimes I take an hour at at a time! x
Thanks Hannah. Definitely a good start only 4 weeks so that should be ok. But definitely one day at a time. Some days it definitely is an hour at a time but I'm sure it'll come round quickly.
So glad you got a date! Hopefully this will get you on the right road :)
Thanks Ellen! I'm chuffed. Not really that long to wait. I really hope this goes along the right path to helping me.
I'm glad you have a date. I actually did the same thing last year; it really wasn't for me but I got the most extraordinary help from my housing association of all places. A lady there realised I was struggling and the day to day things that needed doing at home (repairs etc) she took care of in a matter of weeks. I even got a new kitchen fitted! Sometimes it takes physical action from people more than words to pull you out of your misery and it certainly worked for me. Good luck with your appointment :)
This has been so long waiting for over 2 and a half years so am pleased to finally get it. I have no idea how or what will happen as, like you, I know others who have said it isn't for them.
Definitely agree. Physical actions are nice. I'm pretty secluded around here though so don't get much choice other than words. But that being said I'm doing different physical things to help. Thanks, as always, for commenting.
I am so glad you have finally got an appointment! Hang on in there x
Aw thanks Kim. I'm managing too. Feel like I'm moving forward this week.
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